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I've never really liked it, but I can't stay away from a cake with it.
I wonder why is it so.
My uncele and aunt came from xy country and it's such a bore.
I know they're thinking how better off they are from us, and it's so lame-they are lame.
My 2nd cousin is soon to be someones wife; only one more cousin to go( closest kin).
Man, they're at it like it's a race:DDDD
Watched G.I Joe:Rise of Cobra today and it was fun.
That's all I need, some entertainment and distraction from everyday life.
That's why I read slash books, manga...anime.
MY life isnt easy and I deserve some distraction.
Why shouldn't I be granted some just becasue I'm not stinking rich?!
Why should you?!

WARNING: This journal is private,only to my selected humanoid population of 6 billions-planet Earth, no aliens invited:P
Disclaimer:Because my personal precious info is to be shared only with special ppl( we have a secret language and nick names for each other, we love to say we love you and tell others how big friends we are) who read manga, or any kind of written word( or oral word on any language) no lolly pop ppl allowed;PP
Proceed with pink glasses.

I've joined a gym and went to a Jump&pump training class.
I'm going to jazz dancing as soon their entry time starts.
I want to start to live a different kind of live now, and feel good about my body( in shape, not so much weight)
I've got a lot of exams to give and that's making me grumpy and short tempered.
I don't understand why ppl have to complicate things when accepting new members in their community; if you don't have a quantity rule( more or less then 300) why not accept ppl?!

I mean we all leech everyday( not only in manga) but in a lot of ways( movies, music, our parents); what the hell is wrong if I don't have a new chapter of xy to share?

Ha-ha-ha short tempered indeed.

Anyhow they replaced my sewing machine with a new one; I plan to make lots of new creations.

I've spent a beautiful week in Bosnia with my family( the nature, and hiking on the mountains did me good), then another one in Istra on the Motovun film  festival. Then I had to prepare for a Bosnian wedding.
It was so awkard because we came overdressed, compared to the rest of the ppl I came to have tea with queen Elisabeth.
But blood is blood.
And kin is kin-bloodkin.

I've started watching True blood, I don't like it at all, but can't stop watching it.
Funny, no?
U2 came and had two concerts in Zagreb, I find the fuss about them even less neccessary then the arival of BushMAN while he was still a president.
I only like one song, and I don't even know the name.
I call it 'the only song of U2 that I love&like'
I wonder if it's yours favourite too?
I'm listening to Samantha Fox 'Touch me'

 

Just wanted you all to know that vol4 of the novel S(Esu) on English  is up on yshare
(I would provide a link, uploaded somewhere; but the uploader there said only allowed for grabs on yshare)

So, take a stroll and grab it for yourselves;)

We have left fall behind us in our  country.
No more rains, or nice things to eat from the gardens.
Late blooming flowers and fruit trees.
All behind us. Even that beutiful fall sky in my country.
Did you know that you can never see the star constellation so clearly and it never seems so close up like in the fall.
i can see all the horoscope signs.
in the summer there are millions of stars in the night sky, but no constellations.
Sky above me in fall is simply beautiful.


I could probably talk for hours about how much i adore snow, how it looks on trees, roads etc.
it would take so much time to explain the beauty of winter.
it's even more special from the viewpoints of ppl living in four season countries like me.
i can not even imagine a year in which there is only rain(england,germany) or the tropic countries&islands with their burning sun,
not to mention the bleary eternal frosted scandidavian countires, alaska etc.


i guess what i'm trying to say i like the way things change from winter to summer. i like the fact that i know that after winter there is spring and after that summer and fall.
and come christmas and my birthday is the day the first snow falls.
and nothing lasts forever which makes you enjoy and treasure every snowflake and white fog seeping through the white streets and forests.
and even when there is no fog i look up and see, no sky above me.
winter.

Well, this is seriously annoying.
The sewing machine died on me in th emiddle of my 'reparation' season leaving me with a bunch of fabric (bought and paid for)
and nothing to wear(it's lovely to liv ein a country which has four seasons but the trouble is that G8 completley pollluted this planet and the sodding oson damaged field is currently making temperatures, rain and storms with unbearble heat mingle and change in a matter of two days only.
Which means i was no tprepared for this cold wind that blows away houses or the fever and clogged airwaves that aren't letting up for days..

man!
i wonder. more likely i can't help myself but to wonder why on earth am i surprised.
 i mean, i'v ebeen told repeatedly by ppl who are both older,wiser and have more life e. then me that when thiungs go down everything else follows down and the spiralling into the depths of hell never seems  without an end untill it does only to start again shortly after the 'break'.

like i don't have enough shit a t home, university , money fuck, brain fucks(i can't imagine what life would be like without cerebral sex.i'm so oversated i realy don't have any will or energy for any other kind)

and why can't i get a stupid bathing costume in october it's sodding october not february!!
i swear i'm going to loose it and get bitter like my father.
i so not want tooo cause it realy isn't me.
but hey ppl chabge and i don't mean it in a good way.

maybe if this headache lets up a bit so i can concetrate on breathing properly i can start studying again( i hope my vision wont be too blurry)
cause there's not a thig on this world that's more important than that.

this world sucks.
honestly.
it's ot my aggravation.
it's the trurh.
it's because we're all so passive and would rather go shopping then boycott the idiots that are dictating the prices.

why isn't anyone doing anything except going shopping and on  avacation.
vacation from what.
certai nly not from overthinking, if you asdk me.

i've been dying in the year of 2008 because i can't seem to get my hands on (english)jinsei barairo da ch 4,5 and on or
(english)touch blue ch 4,5 and on
raws will prolong my life for a quople of months but the outcome will remain the same.
i'm quite fond of this planet and my body so please,if you can, HELP ME!

also,whatever happened to hochuuami scanlation group.
their webpage is gone.
my eternal love( ch3 and on of yaoi manga flowers/flower(?)) will forever be separated by the cruel fate....
*holding back tears*
**failing miserably**
***oh,crap***

I realy don't like it when ppl badmouth each other or use the most damaging way to retell what someone else said about i don't know who.
no,i'm not a hypocrite.
when i get upset i also think of lots of bad things to say,and sometimes i mumble them in my room and say 'it's awful' to someone but i don't just intentionally 'prey' on ppl so i can use their words against them.
i mostly avoid commenting individuals at all.
what does a couple of 'frustrated idiots' mean?
nothing.
but a society made of them....now that's the real issue.
when i badmouth ppl, i actually use plural cause in my eyes there are very few exceptions and most of us are just combinations of realy bad habits,enjoying stamping on others to get what we need and loving it when someone's in a pinch and we aren't.

so i twitched and was ready to cancel the whole friendship thing with Katarina because i realy despised her when she said:"Bring me notes for today cause God only knows what's in  those of  dimwit of Heidi and will she bring them to me at all."
I don't like Heidi.
Truth be told for a girl she is realy slow and not specialy bright.
Mother nature hasn't been very generous with her features(body&face) and her personality perfectly fits in the stereotype 'wanna be smart but i am not'.
and to top it all she treats me like shit.
But i've never said a word against her in my entire lifetime(i am writting now;P)
nor i intend to.
what would be the point?
she takes no space in my life.
because i shut out all ppl who bring negative thoughts to me.
Heidi bye-bye.
Katarina,i'll give her one more chance( Heidi wasted hers) to see if she's just spending a realy hard month or is she a hard headed idiot.
my definition of an idiot is a person that likes to 'prey' on ppl.

anyway,i'm off to read some yaoi manga.

o.k so i was sleepy and tired and you all need to ignore my previous post cause it was supposed to go to freemanga and not here.

anyway i'm much in a better mood today cause i had a misunderstanding with soemone on the net and i was just fighting off negative emotions related to that.
but the point is it is solved(at least on my side)

my exams are creeping up on me(so are  the idiots who can't stop asking why would somemne(me) throw a lawyer carrier to go study something else) so i don't know how often will i be lurking through yaoi sharing communities,blogs and sites but i hope everything will be settled by the end of april.

i would just liek to say that even though the world is gray soem ppl still have colors in them.

 i hope you're one of them.

i know there was a post similar to mine but the sendspace folder for dmm releases is not hosted there anymore.
the link is broken.
i was wondering about which manhwas dmm has scanlated,do they have a folder on some other host(oh,gawd just not megaupload)
or perhaps someone can pm/e-mail me what they have...
are there any other scanlations group for bl manhwa.
i enjoyed the summit ,totaly captivated ,even boy princess and i would like to read more(ufortunatly darlings my knowledge concerning asian languages and scandidavians ones is non-existent. and i ahte french.)
so spanish,english,german,talian whatever is fine.)

i do hope someone can help me out.
i'm totaly clueless  about  irc(and we're in hate-kill you relationship)
soooo,help?

thank you for your time.
i hope you can help me out.

i will never understand ppl.
i'm starting to loose the will to try.
all they wanna talk about are clothes,cars,vacations(money,money,money) or the fact how some ppl don't have clothes,cara,vacations(money,money,money)
or they get it in their heads that if they're thin and wearing colorful childish clothes that they are optimistic and happy.
and if they' spend their lives ignoring problems that can not be resolved with money that they are so lively and perfect.

and of course if you don't spend your life beliving you're the greatest and smartest person around(or your friends),you're an idiot.


so,why am i such a lonely idiot?
isn't there anyone else who doesn't overestimate themselves,whose happiness comes from inside(no matter how rare that happens)
 whose will to understand others and smile never abates?


there must be someone...
i'm getting so tired and cold.
i don't want to belive that 'their' behaviour is normal and the only way to live is to pretend just like'them'.
i don't want to pretend.

i'm here and alive.
i can be touched so no need to be alarmed.
if you want me to hear you,whisper.